What am I gonna do about it?

Go forward in spite of it. In fact most of my life I simply felt like a failure, I didn't understand that it was the o.c.d. that was blocking my efforts.

Only recently have I realized that it is the *o.c.d. and some a.d.d. ( Attention Deficit Disorder) that were hindering my efforts in life.

Knowing what it is that is happening has been at least my first step in getting past this.

This illness causes me a lot of self doubt.

Self doubt will stop a person from anything they attempt to do in life.

I don't recall being taught about the self doubt part of this malady when I was in therapy - I don't think we were able to get that far into the disorder.

Some really good therapy helped me and continues to help me today.

This was the therapy developed by Dr. Claire Weeks.

I was in therapy for panic attacks and agoraphobia.

I stumbled upon the most wonderful therapist for help! Through the yellow pages of the phone book!

That is like a one in a million happening - huh?

I don't have anything new to add to this situation.

Simply that I am currently experiencing - still experiencing this nuisance of an illness. I see it as an illness today.

I think that's progress. An illness is something that isn't your fault.

I suppose that means that I've considered this my fault - for a long time!

Obsessive compulsive disorder has been with me since I was about 13 yearrs old - or earlier.