Each day I say my prayers in the morning.... before I open my eyes I ask God for help to stay free of my addiction for that one day. However - freedom from my addiction is only the first of the prayer requests for God. There is much more to pray about in my days today.
When I get downstairs I pour my first cup of coffee and take it to my favorite recliner chair. Today, my morning prayers are much different than they were when I first began praying on a daily basis, 24 years ago. Today I have more patience; I have more trust in God; and I have more desire to turn my day over to the care of God. In my 'beginnings' I was uncertain of turning my life over to God. I wasn't sure I would like what God might have to offer or just what God would ask me to do with my life.. That trust took time to develop.
Twenty-four years ago, it was suggested to me that I ask a power greater than myself for help to be fee of my alcohol addiction. I tried this for eleven days and each day it didn't work; then, on the 12th day, it worked! (There were a couple of other things that I did as well, by the way.) So, I did it the next day; and each day following that, I have asked God for help in the morning, and have thanked Him at night. With this practice, and it is practice, I've learned much more about prayer; and about the power of prayer. I was told to pray to a 'power greater than myself' - for me, that was God. But I didn't know how to have a relationship with God. That also took time, and talking to others who had done this themselves. But it does come with time and with practice.
Today in the morning - for only about three weeks I've been saying a rosary each morning. Immediately, I found a peace come over me. It seemed very strange at first. It was really a startling feeling for about a week or longer. This peace, has never been a part of my existence and today it stays with me each day, even if I have places in a day where I have frustration or discontent, I recapture this peaceful feeling very quickly and without any effort. Today I know that this is God doing for me what I cannot do for myself.
This beautiful peace; (still an odd feeling actually,) is only one part of my prayer journey. I see this walk of mine clearly as a journey, I can see the hills and dales I've already traversed. I like this part of my journey and yet... I always have want for more, or for better in one way or another. But, to date, I've not been let down. My heavenly father does not let me down. This peace-filled existence I am experiencing today is only one part, and I know this today. From my past, those hills and dales, I know there is much more to come. And all it took to get here was one small prayer in the morning - maybe a prayer during the day, and a thank you at night. That was my beginning - and my middle and my present. The difference is that I have increased that morning prayer time, and ... the frequency of prayer during the day.
If there were anything in life that I could pass on to my fellow travellers in this world it is that prayer will change your life. It will change your life for the better. Whatever your higher power is ... try, make a beginning. If it works for me, it can work for anyone.